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ok.. well think i have enuf of violent n bad post le.. think i shld tink of de bright side le la..haha!! aniway.. well.. i gt nth 2 do.. realli..haha.. n duno wat 2 write oso.. well.. aniway.. i have a veri nice song 2 intro.. it is ah heng's blog song... de title is called Life is Like a Boat... by Rie Fu... u all can go www.heng.blogspot.com n listen 2 tat song!haha!! if nt...i can try sending 2 u all in msn if possible ba~haha!! or u can go www.riefu.com n visit de singer's website..~!!! takecare frenz.. well.... gt nice songs mux share ya!!aha!!
well.. 2day suppose 2 go fer Strikeforce... n sumting stupid happen... my mum.. yesh.. she again.. cum in n start scolding... i realli cannot understand.. wat is it tat she wants.. i realli getting more n more fed up... as if i going there is play.. pls la.. is fer Chingay leh... i realli duno wat 2 say le... sumtimes hw i wish i can juz vanish into thin air.. den she will nt have so mani troubles n waste her energy scolding me... realli.. hw i wish i have the courage... n juz end it.. i realli hate it.. trying 2 fake a strong side in front of her n nt cry.. but my tears simply cant be controlled... the words that she said... realli are juz like those sharp knifes stabbing into my heart... i hate it lo.. she tink i loves 2 quarrel wid her meh? she doesnt noe that i am suffering the pain in my heart even after de quarrels that we have... i weep silently n nt let her noe.. why? coz i dun wan her 2 be worry fer me... is this an act of insensible?! but juz i realli cant stand de way she is treating me lo.. as if i am nt her child.. as if i am a jinx... oh pls.. if i am.. den why in de first place bring me 2 this world!!! yesh i cant deny tat sumtimes she is realli veri great.. but sumtimes... she juz vent all her anger on me.. when she faced problems @ her work place.. she will cum hme n whoever gets a bit rowdy will get it frm her.. ok.. this i cant blame.. but cant she be more rational!!! i realli cannot tolerate this..
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Cynthia and Alvin used to be a couple, and no one could separate the duo no matter where they went. Their parents had disapproved of the relationship , but the two stayed true to each other. After his 'A' levels, Alvin did exceptionally well and won a scholarship to prestigious university overseas. Afraid that their relationship might affect his studies, Alvin's parents approaches Cynthia, wanting her to break off with him. For the sake of Alvin's future, Cynthia agreed to it. It was a heartbreaking moment, as Cynthia walked away from Alvin after telling him the news. He was devastated. A few days later, she heard from Alvin's sister that Alvin had left for London. Months passed, Cynthia did not hear from Alvin. Sometimes, she could no bear it and would call his sister to find out more about him. Apparently, Alvin was doing well in his studies and he had found a new girlfriend. The sister even told Cynthia of Alvin's plans to marry the new girl after his graduation. Cynthia was shattered, but she knew that it was for the best. She tried to forget him, but found out that she could not. Gradually, she grew depressed and started to think about committing suicide more and more often. One night, she received a phone from Alvin. " I miss you. I will be coming to visit you soon. Wait for me," and he hung up. That night, she dreamt about Alvin. In the dream, he told Cynthia that he was very happy to see her. When she asked him about his new steady, he denied having one and tears spilled from his sad eyes. However, before she could ask further, he vanished right in front of her. The next day, Cynthia called Alvin's sister and told her about the dream. To Cynthia's surprise, the sister burst into tears. "Sorry, I have been lying to you all along about Alvin. The truth was that my brother was already dead. He was killed in an accident six months ago." "Why did you lie to me?" "I hope that this would make you forget him. Alvin would never want you to be sad. He couldn't bear it." As if Cynthia knew that he would call again, she went home and waited for his phone call that night. True enough, at around the same time, the phone rang. "You should know where I am calling from." "Yes." "I could not forget you." "Neither can I." "Would you still have me as your boyfriend ? I can't be there with you physically, but we can still talk like this." "I would love to." "How you manage to fix the phone so fast? Cynthia was talking on the phone the whole of last night." Cynthia's mother asked her husband, as he came in through the door. "The phone's still spoilt. What are you talking about?" In horror, the parents looked at Cynthia who was still talking on the hall phone.
well.. woke up 2day @ 1020... den prepare myself fer work.. den was 10mins late.. but reach there but there is nobody!haha!! den saw Jasper.. so joined him n chat... den a while later Joanna came.. den we start work le lo.. actually is Jane overslept.. coz she sick.. den took de medicine.. den becum drowsy le lo.. den think she missed her alarm lo.. den after that i work till 430 den went off le.. haha!! den reach hme.. finish my food..den a while later go bath and get ready 2 go fer Ruan Ensemble performance @ NAFA... reach bugis @ ard 720...meet Szehui n Samuel.. diaOz..haha!! i so bright there... den reach @ ard 730... but the ting start late lo.. 740 den start... overall the performance is great but... i feel so sad lo.. coz got 2 of de soloist.. both are still in secondary sch!!! 1 of them is sec2...de other 1 is sec3!!! haiz... me... nw already poly n yet my zhongruan skills is still so lousy lo..haiz... think i realli have to put in more effort le la..haiz.. den after tat went hme... with Lihua, Xiuping.. den we were talkin abt sumtings tat we realli suspect lo...haha!! =x cant say..haha!! den saw Samuel
well.. 2day meet up with my dearest "sister" guoping and my cutie audrey~ haha!! well... de 2 of them think waited fer me fer almost an hour lo.. coz of sum things... i have 2 leave de hse late..haha!! den heard they went 2 blue roof n sit dwn there lo.. haha!! den after tat meet them @ Noel building lo.. den after tat we went up... den we wanted 2 prank call Chingpei they all 1... but in de end we faileD!haha!! den went in lo.. den Moon helped us call Loretta out 2 bring us in.. haha! coz they had juz changed a CS manager den quite strict lo.. dun allow other ppl in!~haha!!den after go in.. we walked ard find our supervisors...haha!! den saw a lot of new ppl... think they mostly attachment 1 lo.. but missed Yazhid's, Lena's voice... coz they quit le.. haiz.. so sad... den wanted 2 find Jess frm accounts.. but she nt there... haiz.. sian..haha!! den we waited fer Chingpei till 6+ coz at first she say she wanna go out wid us 1 lo.. den in de end... she abandon de 3 of us fer Jay Chou!!!!!!!!!!!haha!! den after tat.. de 3 of us went off first 2 go watch movie.. den @ kallang mrt.. guoping go top up ezlink.. den i saw sum1 familiar lo..haha!! n tat is my partneR!!Harrison lo..haha!!he waiting fer Zhiguan coz they going fer Jay concert oso... den tok a while wid him lo.. den after tat de 3 of us went off le lo.. den we went bugis lo.. we decided 2 watch The Shutter.. but bugis dun have.. so we decide 2 go Suntec lo.. den Shirley calleD~haha!! she @ Suntec.. so we decide 2 go meet her up.. den go watch movie..den halfway walkin 2 Suntec.. we walk into Shaw Tower... den the cinema got show The Shutter lo.. but is @ 9plus lo... den in de end we go watch Saw... den Shirley came over n meet us lo... haha!! den de movie... oh man!!! tat movie.. realli.. i tell u ar... first time i watch movie till i so stress n nearly go crazy lo.. wat sia!! but de movie...realli!!! is shioK!!! haha!! den after tat we went hme lo... den i reach hme le.. den slack...
=>reunion........fed uP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<=
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11/26/2004 11:58:00 PM
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well.. juz sum thoughts...
haiz.. juz gt my result... not veri gd lo... haiz... so de sad.. heres an overall lo...
ok.. finally.. i am back.. my buzy n tiring but yet fun week have past..!!! haha!!! well.... think i will start frm friday lo...haha!!!
well.. few days nv update le...
well... ok.. never update fer a few days le.. ok.. nth much happen la..
yesh!! i am back frm HK! haha.. okok.. gt miss me? whahahaha!!! okok... well think i will juz list dwn wat i did in hk lor..ahha!!!
ok.. went 2 sch earli in de morning fer CO music camp meeting.. i was late.. reach onli @ 1015...haha!! den after tat go eat.. den go back CO room roT... den practice.. haiz.. so tiring lo. fingers so pain.. yao duan le.. haiz.. den practice till DONGLIE... den de Samuel went out.. diaoz.. coz he dun wanna play.. den pangseh me n Peile.. den i be a gd gal.. stay behind n play lo.. den when abt 2 start.. my mummi call..haha!! den i have 2 go outside n ans call.. haha.. den all look at me.. n say " hey.. why u oso nt playing.." wahahha!! okok.. so i bo bian.. after ans call.. den i go back.. diaOz.. they all waiting fer me... so paiseh.. den i dun even realli noe hw 2 play lo.. in front.. 2 bars.. look @ Peile's fingering.. den after tat.. behind.. juz anihw hantam..whaha... haiz.. den after tat... practice n practice.. non stop.. haiz.. so tiring.. den finish @ ard 5.. den start 2 do preparation fer de instruments... den took de SPCO shirt n windbreaker..den waited fer a while le den go off... den went JP buy stuffs.. den eat.. den onli reach hme by 820..den start packing.. finish onli by ard 10 lo.. den i practice a while my DONGLIE... realli.. still Cannot make it.. haiz.. i veri sad le la.. but at least better den juz nw.. haiz.. den nw... already 11... tink i better catch some slp.. before i cannot take it tml.. haiz.. gt 2am wake up later @ 2 lo.. diaOz.. 2 prepare le.. coz going off at ard 3+... whOo.. so tirinG... been burning midnite oils fer de past 2 wks.. slept onli after 3am almost every single day.. haiz.. so tireD...wahhaha!! kk!! nite..!! hey ppl!! dun mix me too much woR!!haha!!!nw is already 11.05pm le!!haha!!
yesh!! finally all my paper finish le!! yeah!! my happiest day had cum!!wahhaha! so happy.. think siao soon le..haha!!!ani1 here free send me 2 IMH!!!wahhahaa!! aniway.. ya.. finish my papers le... veri happy..whOo!! haha!! den after paper.. went makan lo.. @ fc3.. den after tat go CO room.. discuss camp tingy. a while onli..wahaha!! den rot there.. start practice my Zhongruan... den after tat i go play YangQin...haha!! nth better 2 do..whahaha!! den after tat we go makan again...whahaha!! i neber eat la.. see LayLeng, PeiLe & Harrison eat.. haha.. den tok rubbish.. den we go back CO room rot again..haha!! den PeiLe went 2 meet her KY den left de 3 of us.. suppose 2 meet Chunyi.. haiz.. den keep calling her... den she nv answer.. sms oso no reply... haiz.. den thought she duno fly where.. den i went bugis with LayLeng n Harrison @ 250 lo... den she onli reply me @ 4+ lo..haiz.. den i already walking ard @ Bugis le.. by de time i back 2 JP... 5 le.. haiz.. so in de end i pangseh her.. haiz.. cham la.. tink she angry le.. haiz.. Sorry la.. =x aniway.. felt so fustracted lo.. wanna buy black formal button up top fer my HK trip.. but in de end.. we 3 walk ard like mad ppl oso cannot find 1.. where de heck all de black shirt go 2... haiz.. den no choice.. have 2 borrow..haha!! frm Taifong..wahhaha!! thanks man!! haha!! den in de end we juz walk ard..haha... den after tat Szehui call lo.. tat funny gal.. did another funny ting again..haha!! wanna go CO room pract... den no key..haha!! den she stand outside CO room..diaOz..haha!! haiyo.. den we gt nth 2 do.. so go back sch lo.. reach sch @ 6... den we practice... den i left @7... haiyo.. n i wanna mention..
juz feel like blogging... well it is quite late now.. yah.. haiz.. veri tired.. have an exam tml morning.. realli hope 2 do well though i never realli study deep fer de last 2 chap.. coz i miss de lesson fer de 2nd last chap.. n i dun understand de last chap... well... but still realli hope 2 do well.. aniway... realli veri hectic week fer me is cumin le.. although i will be going 2 HK this sunday.. n my exam is going 2 end tml.. but i will be even more busy after my papers... haiz..tat's funny ya? haha!! aniway.. tml after paper got 2 meet Harrison 2 discuss games.. will realli hope tat de games can realli work.. realli hope tat SPCO ppl will be participating in de games.. so.. ani SPCO peePx looking.. pls.. i realli hope tat u all will pls... play de games k? if realli it doesnt goes well... haiz.. i oso duno wat to do.. haha.. fer my characteristic... think gotta give them orr bin(as black as bao gong) or i might even lecture them? whOo!! okok.. no la.. haha!! juz kidding... buden still both of us definately will be veri sad cuming up with games fer them n they nt playing ya? so.. realli hope tat SPCO ppl can realli give face n play k??well.. juz nw Szehui called.. haha.. she is mad.. tok so loud lo.. haiyo.. my eardrum wanna spoil le la!! haha!! aniway.. was toking abt de black shirt..haiz.. both of us haben buy yet lo... thinking 2 buy it tml... no matter wat.. i muz buy it by tml...hahaha!! if nt i will die man!!haha!! den she say she wanna go.. okay... haha... so after tat chat online fer a while.. den tat Szehui funny woman.. haiyo.. heard frm Weiling tat they meeting 5pm tml lo.. haiyo.. den hw are u going JP with us? haha!! u funny woman.. okok.. watever.. den was chatting online.. ya... chatting with Chunyi, Weiling, Harrison den veri sian.. wanted 2 play game.. den go fine Eileen.. but duno why de toopid msn dun let me play..haiz.. so i go back 2 my bks... den after tat sian again.. find Weiling n AhHeng play wid me... den de choU AhHeng dunwanna play wid me..haiz.. den i play wid Weiling fer a while..den i go back study again... haha!! actually...veri happy la.. coz can realli go out tml n relax... no worries on exam n stuff.. yes!! by tml 1110am!!! i will be frEe!! haha!! lalalalala!! ok... but it oso means my hectic wk is starting le..haha!! watever... no stress.. nvm!! haha.. ok.. nw is already 2.25am.. blog fer 20mins le..wahahaha... haiz.. watever la.. i realli hope 2 move on in life although sum tings are keep botherin me.. haiz.. watever..!!! Lets move on... i wanna go 2 another chapter of my life.. i wanna start anew!yeah!! jiayou!...
wHoo!!! my laPtoP iS oKaY Le!!! yeah!!!
haiz... was tinking to blog ystrday nite.. but out of sudden my laptop hang... den restart... worst ting is... suddenly duno why an error msg cum out... den my whole window... GONE!!!! arGh!!! veri sad lo... my laptop... liydat.. gonE!!!! haiz.. den now bo bian.. have 2 blog using my brother's com... haiz... so sad... cannot listen 2 all my songs in my laptop... n the worst thing is my revision ws for tml's test... is in de LAPTOP!!!! arGH!!! cham la.. haiz.. think later go fren's hse n print lo..haiz... i am veri veri sad liao la... haiz.. stupid laptop... haiz.. thinking of this... haiz.. makes me sian 1/2.. haiz..
=>a veri veri veri veri veri veri sad day....<=
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11/04/2004 01:17:00 PM
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A police officer had a beautiful daughter, who fell in love with a boy who was an ordinary poor person. When the gal's father came to know about their love, he did not like it at all, and so began to protest about it. Now it happened that the two lovers left their homes for a happy future. The gal's father started searching for the two lovers but could not find them. At last, he accepted their love and asked them in a newspaper to come back. Her father said that if u both come back, i will marry u wit the guy u luv, i accept that u loved each other truly. So in this way their love won and the age old attitude of the tribe took a beating. The couple went to the city for shopping for the wedding. He was wearing a white traditional dress, and was crossing the road when a car came and hit him and he died on the spot. The girl lost her senses. After a long time she recovered and accepted that her love has died. One night she was sleeping in her home with her family. Her mother had a dream in which she saw a fairy. That fairy asked her mother to wash the blood spots of the guy from her daughter's clothes as soon as possible. But her mother ignored the dream. Next night the father saw the same dream, he also ignored it. Then when the girl had the same dream the next night,she woke up and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked her to wash the clothes on which there were blood spots. She washed the spots but some remained. Next night she again had the same dream she again washed the spots but some still remained. Next night she again had the same dream and this time that fairy gave her last warning to wash the blood spots, else something terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the spots, the clothes tore, but some spots still remained. In the evening on same day when she was alone, someone knocked the door, when she opened the door she saw the fairy at the door. She got very scared and fainted. The fairy woke her up..., and gave her an object, That awe-struck girl asked "what is this..? to which the fairy replied......
ok.. i am here 2 blog.. think i gotta blog more frequent liao.. if nt.. de blog will be so sian..haha!!! aniway.. 2day.. went 2 play pool lo.. haiz.. suppose 2 meet Yuanrong n YuXing @ 1pm.. n goSh!!! i onli wake up @ 1240pm?!haha!! haiz.. den liydat lo.. den in de end.. i was late fer 2hours 10mins..wahahahha!! den kana suan by de 2 of them.. haiz..!!! cannot blame me la!!! slp leh!! haha!! my fave hobby.. cannot liydat 1 ma..haha!!... den u 2 oso.. neber gib me morning call!!haha!!! =x haiyo... haiz.. den go play pool @ JE lo... well.. first is me n Yuxing.. den Yuxing n Yuanrong... den me n Yuanrong.. wahhah!! we play fer ard 2hours.. in a fixed routine lo..haha!! den play.. haha!.. i am de big loser.. i lose every game.. duno why.. maybe juz kind of distructed... haiz.. ok.. i dun wanna touch on de part why am i distructed.... den after tat.. go pay lo.. den is $7.50... den Yuanrong be a kind person.. haha!! he treat us..~haha!! diaOz.. thanks ar...aniway.. after tat.. was planning 2 watch movie.. but cant decide wat movie 2 watch.. coz i wanna watch Oujia Board but JE dun hab... so we decide 2 go eat... coz me n Yuxing hungry... so eat LJS... den nt much tok... den after saw Dawn.. den she say she go meet Felisia...haha!! den was so shock tat Felisia oso @ JE lo..!! haha!! den went 2 find her.. .den Yuanrong go find his frens 2 study lo... den we chat n chat fer while.. den go library find book read oso.. den after tat... Dawn n Felisia go watch movie.. den me n YuXing walk ard lo.. den after tat go home.... den here i am sitting 2 blog lo.haha!! haiz.. realli sian.. duno whether shld i go sch play tml.. kind of sian lo.. coz i feel like buryin myself in de books tml... hmm... will see hw... most probably will go.. play till 3...den go bath.. den go study like a siao kia lo.. haha!! aniway... i think shld be all lo.. haiz...
If you see me walking the road with someone else, It's not because I like his accompany... Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me. If you hear me talking about him all the time Its not because he pleases me Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat If you feel me falling with someone new Its not because I love him.. But because you're not there to catch me fall If you feel lost, I too am nowhere I too don't know where the road is going Are we gonna cross each other's path Or just completely turn around?.. Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound Don't let me walk with him, It's you I want to walk with.. Don't let me talk of him, it's you I want to talk with.. Don't let me fall for him, It's you I want to fall in love with.. "HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?" When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step of the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat I didn't want to assume anything And I was afraid to lose our friendship When you thought I wasn't there to catch you, It was because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost I too don't know where the road is going Are we just going to turn around, Or are we gonna cross each other's path? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk alone I want to walk by your side Don't let me talk of something else It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone else It's you I want to fall in love with. WHEN I SAW YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU... WHEN I TALKED TO YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU... WHEN I HOLD YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU... NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ... I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU... SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS... BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT... THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...
aiyah.. juz wanna blog.. duno why..whahahaha!! but i duno wat 2 blog.. diaOz.. de urge of blogging.. ok.. maybe coz i a bit siao siao 2day liao!!haha!! aniway.. ok.. think i will jot down wat happen 2day lo..
weLL... this is a story tat i came across... quite touching lo....
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